staring at you so small, feels warm your soft touch, emanating from your eyes so deep. A thousand ... is someone who loves his child so much, but not for me, I was born with a lack, I was disabled, I could not walk and talk normal like the other children, my mother said, before I was born with abnormalities there were many shortcomings, many natural ailments, so my mother had to go out of town often and often spent money just for treatment, I was helpless, I could do nothing what, I'm like a paralyzed person, I wither, when I was a baby, my mother at that time felt ashamed and insecure, because of my shortcomings, said my mother, my father didn't mind me, I just made my father and mother embarrassed because of my lack, 2 years old when the mother never hugged me, like a child, who got a little hug and warm kiss from a mother, let alone my present, often said harshly to me, and after that my father often scolded me uku, because of me, I, who is still a child, can't do anything, my mother just lets me do that, I'm just fed and drunk, treated, without feeling a warm hug from my mother, every time my mother meets her friends, my mother feel mulu, and especially those who try to understand my mother's situation, but there are also those who are not as good and unfaithful to mother, some who do drop my mother.
I was born there was no one who wanted me, let alone my wife, I was born of 3 brothers, and I was the third child, a child who was expected to come out as a woman, but what they wanted was not achieved, and I came out in the world with men and many because I want girls, so boys are not wanted in their lives, but I am sure that they will love me once and I will prove to my father that boys can only make them difficult and ashamed this will make they are proud, yes someday I will certainly prove it, god ... help me, help me how to make my father and mother proud and love me.
1 year 3 times I have to be taken treatment out of town, and they spend a lot of money every year, and fortunately, my parents belong to the category of wealthy families, so that going back and forth out of town is not a problem for them, because they really want seeing me become a child who grows up healthy and normal, sometimes it's not time for me to control health 3 times, in that one year, I've experienced my health problems, so the medicine again and again. That makes my mother even more upset with me, especially my father
mother ... forgive me, I don't want to be born like this but I can't fight the destiny of the Almighty, the omnipotent creator and the gracious giver. God, whether I am like this, not God, have mercy on my parents. who tried to cure me, I did not want to see them sad and hold shy because of me, even though I knew all this was the best of you god.
I am getting weaker, I am increasingly wilting, I have not been able to prove to them that I can become their pride later.
5 months passed ..
my mother met a friend, this friend was a friend who was not so good, but my mother's friend was a person who was so caring and enthusiastic to see my weaknesses, so that my mother was not aware of her complaints to her friend, and my mother's friend gave me motivation and enthusiasm for my mother to be receptive to accepting my abnormal situation. indeed sometimes we feel that we are not in line, we feel bad, and feel that God is not fair to us ... why does God give trial to us, because actually good in our eyes is not necessarily good in the eyes of God, but bad in our eyes even though it good for god. my best friend ... I'm sure why God gave this to you all, the burden of life is hard for you, but in fact God will not give trial beyond our limits, short story with my mother's friend.
I also felt comfortable close to my mother's friend, who was so warm I was carrying her, I kissed and loved, I could only shed tears of joy and emotion, because I wished the mother who kissed me, when I got home usually my mother put me in place I slept, and my mother began to work, but at that time after meeting with her friend, my mother was close to me, and gave me time, and I kissed her, I warmed with her hug, and my mother's tears dripped down my cheeks and while whispering, '' my dear baby forgive my mother, forgive the mother who cannot accept this fact, forgive the mother who always wasted you, forgive the mother who never gave you warmth, I'm sure you don't want to be born like this, all this the will of the Almighty, forgive my mother, mother will always keep you mother will always protect you,
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