I was a girl my age around 17 years, so I got to know love at the age of 17, but I do not know real love, I fell in love with a man, who loved me, he was named asep, asep is a teacher of the Koran in his village, and I will love him, because I'm thankful God has brought me to a pious man, and I hope this is my first and last love, I sometimes feel is probably a pious man really love the way it is, I'm at the age of 17 years can be said of my behavior as a man, but in addition I also have an attitude to women that can make someone's in love with me, with my long hair and my cooking hobby , and also a perfect face so many men at the time wanted me, from the poor to the rich, from the bad to the good-looking, of children who are aged under me, until the child is above me, yes all of my love , but I'm interested only in men named asep, his simple life and his religious attitude which makes my eyes open, and I always wanted to taste it with her, I do not know why he can love me, but that's love .
1 year later
I asep closer and our relationship, and the age gap between me and the very different asep 8 years, so I was 18 years old he was 24 years old, and I still have so many goals that I have to reach. I began to fret whether he will stay or leave me, and after a few days when he was 25 years old and I was 19 years old, he asked me to marry him, and she would come to my house, because during this time, the two are not my parents know, and I refuse to weigh it, and I do not want to get married before I did it, and made it to two of my parents proud of me, and he kept pushing me, it makes me confused restless and agitated, so I had told him to hold on and wait me, and thankfully she said, willing to wait for me, and I trust him, so I was more calm about my life's journey.
3 months later
I feel asep has changed with me, and I began to wonder what's going on, and when I asked he said that if everything was fine, and when I played in one of my friends, and it turns out there were 3 friends the other, and when we started joking banter together, my friend asep view photos, and she said oh that often comes to the cottage right? often meet aisyah right? At that point I was confused and a little taste of the liver is too thinly, but I'm trying to calm down, and pretend asep is a friend of my brother, and I'm slowly finding out, what is this exactly? after I made my friend told me it turned out asep often play into the lodge, was in the same thing I always say when he would go to the cottage, but he said he wanted to teach at the cottage, as told to help pack pilgrimage there, and it turns out asep deceive me, there he was in his mate with a girl named Aisha, my heart when it really hurt, because I've already trust him. I got home late, and it was at boarding asep me, and it was he waiting from me, as usual her sweet demeanor and do not forget chocolate is always given to me every time he came, but I saw him coming at me like foolish, because I've been fooled by him, and I was not behaving as usual, I was very sick, and I do not want to see him, and I told her if I was tired and wanted to rest, and he excused himself to go home and give it chocolate at me, and he said good-bye to the cottage again, every afternoon he always came and brought chocolate I do not really say hello, and he always told me to go to the cottage on the call Mr. Hajj, I was very disappointed and heart is so sore, and I have could decide it, and tomorrow I plan to go to his house to inquire about our relationship.
his morning I went with my best friend, but I came alone, and my best friend went because he wanted me to resolve my problem was. I walked into his house, and I was with a sense of hope he chooses me, forever. when I knocked on his door he was opening the door with asep wide, and he told me come in, he sounds little and say I want a shower first, you wait, yes, I was so surprised, I did not get that much in persilah his right to enter into in his house. I was waiting for her at the front door and because I can not wait, I had ventured into his house, and .......... hurt me, because I saw asep with Ayesha is in the house, while I was on leave outside, I could not say anything and I went out and left without a word, asep was running after me, and I was ignored her, my friend got home, I cried and told all the events that I saw, and my friend tried to calm me, so I believed him and it's all just nonsense behind.
right next to his early days he was at the front of the boarding house and apologized, I was asked who he was and why all could happen, at that time I was very angry, and it turns out asep was told that the two parents have mutually agreed, and asep I could not wait too long, he will leave as long as I get married Aisha with asep, it is not possible for me, because I was so young at that time I had no mind for marriage, and finally we are arguing, emotions ego anger all the issued and finally asep leave me, and he married Aisha, without invitation asep married without me asep can do it all, she is very cruel and hurt me. I was sick, and asep still annoy me with submissions by letter he apologized and said sorry, but that does not make it all changed. I can not seem to do anything, why do I really trust her, sweet words, his promises, and his pious attitude that makes him no wrong choice, I do not deserve for him.
1 year later
My age now 20 years old and I started a new chapter and a new spirit, and I should be able to prove that I could be without him and I should be better than before, I was already getting a replacement asep, now I love love by its shortcomings, if once I loved asep with her strengths, I now accept someone with her shortcomings, so that I can complement each other and love, I walk with love and I started to feel that love coming back but still so heavy I live, and so long I live I love meet again with somebody figure pious man, I fell in love with her, but on the other hand I'm with the love of the other, so I had to endure and survive, I do not want to make love is sick, and it turns out the man was too pious Aisha has a well, yes the same name but different people, it turns out life is filled with art. I occasionally thought about the past, just as Aisha and Aisha again. what's going on with my life, why even the name Ayesha?? but it did not make me fall for the second time, I would still keep the love, friendship, family because all there is in real life. This may all be a blessing for me.
and at my age of 21 years I'm going to make everything beautiful in its time, and let it all be a valuable lesson for me, as all life, my mother was the first goal, let's make all of them do not easily discouraged, even though so much of a problem do my friends think that there is a problem, but that there are lessons you have to do, like in school so yes, there is certainly no test subjects, is not a problem right?
I love you all ...
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